Friday, May 30, 2008

Negative Six Month Milestones

  • Weight: quarter of a pound

  • Length: an ear of corn

  • Head circumference: 20 cm

  • You kick Mummy a lot!

  • When you sleep, you love to be on the left side of my belly

  • You love to listen to Surah Mariam

  • You rock when Mummy listen to One Head Light by The Wallflowers

  • Your favorite milks: Alpha Lipid given by Tok Mama and Enfamama chocolate flavored

  • Your favorite fruits: Banana (YUM) and green grapes (YUM YUM)

  • Your favorite tid bits: Honey Star and Toast 'Em

  • You hate when Mummy do not eat (you are definitely take after Bapak's gene)

  • Stole Mummy's heart EVERYDAY!

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Yoohoo Feet...Where Are You?

My feet have disappeared.
Now when I
look down, all I see is belly.
I actually
have to lean over to see my feet.

And my big belly doesn’t just affect my
view of my feet.

I need help getting up if I’m on the floor.

I can’t bend over.

Shave my legs? Ha!

Clipping my toe nails? Yeah, not so easy.

Can’t just slip behind someone in the
hall, my belly tends to bump into them.

Even sitting in certain positions is

Not to mention my big belly has made
my innie an outie!

2 Cute 4 Words

Should I say more? A picture is worth a thousand words. Let’s entertain our eyes at

Bib 1

Bib 2

Bib 3

Bib 4

Bib 5

Bib 6

For a Better Cup

I have been piling up my weight quite dramatically these past few months. I gained 10 kilograms in 5 months. I have always dreamt to gain weight since like forever. If I met with the genie in the bottle and ask me for the three wishful wishes, I would definitely ask him to change my body to Jessica Alba’s. I did once take two cans of Weight Gains just to make my dreams comes true. I even acted pinching your Bapak’s fat and fleshes and put on my body hoping that my vital stats would have changed for the better.

I had been the laughing stock with those mischievous boys in my high school for my skinny body and bones. I never had enough with my body and flat chest. That’s why I don’t really read beauty magazines because I feel ugly. Plus I don’t really have so much money to buy all those gorgeous dress.

Err, can I just be honest here? My number one dream of body makeover is actually to get a better cup for my tiny little twins. I even asked your Bapak to do a cosmetic surgery to my tiny twins. He told me that I have to have at least RM18 K to get my wish comes true. Or else, I just have to wait for you to get a better cup. And he is definitely correct! I get my cup bigger than ever!!! Thank God and thank you for these better cups. Hik hik!

My piece of art

Worth the Weight

My darling little baby: I have experienced so many different things since I found out that I was pregnant with you. Sure I had my share of morning sickness in the first up to four months and now that I am almost six months, I am starting to experience the lovely heartburn and lower back pain that comes along with all of these body changes, but it’s all worth it. I just can’t imagine how I gained so much weight in these five months. It’s surreal to think about the beautiful miracle that Allah is creating inside of me. How did I get so lucky? How did I get so blessed? My absolute favorite part about being pregnant with you (so far) is my big pregnant belly! It definitely is growing each week and that just is a reminder that you are growing, too. I know I have a lot ahead of me when it comes to getting my old body back, but I’m not worried about it because pretty soon I’ll have you in my arms and life as I knew it will have changed for the better. Thank you for your little kicks, which I’m sure will turn into big kicks in no time. I hope you can feel it when I rub my belly and talk to you. I can’t wait to meet you, my little one.

Monday, May 26, 2008

Baby Booties

I do browse a lot to babies’ websites lately. Since I have no classes to attend and no meetings to be present at, the only favorite thing to do now is browsing and googling. I am extremely in love with all of the babies’ stuff, from babies’ mosses to booties. How I wish I would be a baby again. Seeing these entire stuff make you feel like you are in the world of cute little gnome.

One of the babies’ stuff that really captured my eyes is the baby booties. I googled to last week and I found out these very cute baby booties. There are all so very perfect to a little baby. I wish I will shrinking down to baby’s size just to fit in the booties. Why on earth Roberto Cavalli didn’t design the booties for grown-ups? So, I would like to share the booties’ photos I took from for booties lovers.

Post/ script: Err, anyone can sew baby booties here?

Booties 1

Booties 2

Booties 3

Booties 4

Booties 5

Booties 6

Booties 7

Friday, May 23, 2008

Shop Till You Drop (Part I)

Bapak and I had our first baby shopping on May 19, 2008 at the new mall in Kuantan, The East Coast Mall. It was an unplanned shopping actually, but we were so full with adrenaline to shop for your stuffs. Bapak was more excited than Mummy. He wanted to get you the best stroller in town. He was so urged to get you the BMW baby stroller that will cost him the same price to my Myvi. He also wanted to buy you the car seat, the baby cot and the baby book shelf. He just wanted to buy you the big big stuffs. The only small thing he can think of is to get you the baby mitten. Well, I was more real on the other part. My list was only to get you the cute cute little baby clothes.

So off we went to the mall. We went to the Clerk’s. The only words that came out from my mouth were, “OMG! What a beautiful shoe they have!!!”. I didn’t know which pair should I picked up, either blue or pink because we were still unsure with your gender. Seeing that small shoes made my world just got a half-inch smaller! I really wanted to get that pink pair, but Bapak asked me to tahan my nafsu and off we went to another shoes shop, the Nike Boutique. And I just adored one small walking shoe that it will be a must to buy that pair for you once you are out into this world. Seeing I went shopping rampage, Bapak asked me to be more real and we can only shop on one condition – we can only shop for the clothes with the color that fits both genders. I didn’t quite agree at first because my head was already full with pinky stuffs! But I did agree at last.

Finally we went to the Brands Outlet store. And we were like didn’t know where to start. We were like a pair in the Amazing Race Asia. Everything was so cute that we can’t bear ourselves from going crazy! We ran here and there and shouted like nobody was there. I shouted to Bapak, “Abang! Mai sini!!! Kat sini banyak baju best!!!”, and your Bapak will reply in high tone voice, “Obom mai sini!!! Kat sini lagi bestttt!!!”. And there went our shopping spree! I was very sure that you felt the little tsunami in you on that day. Lucky you Mummy didn’t wear the sneakers.

We only quit shopped once the salesgirls announced that the store will be closed in 5 minutes. Shoot! We were still in the mood of shopping, but maybe we keep that mood for Part II. So here are the photos of your first baby clothes! Hope you will like all of them, honey!

Bapak first choice

The close shot

Our choice

The close shot

Mummy's choice

The close shot

Bapak's choice

Baby bib: Mummy's choice (who can resist the pink bib?)

Baby mitten: Bapak's choice

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Guessing Game


...or girl?

I played a guessing game with my family and friends, each taking a shot at pinning down the baby’s gender. But my darling baby, don’t you worry because I will shower you with my ultimate love for whatever gender you are. It is just a guessing game, honey! And here are the guessers and their wild guesses:
  • Mummy - girl
  • Bapak - boy
  • Tok Ma - girl
  • Tok Ba - boy
  • Tok Kedah - boy
  • Anya (Aunty An) - girl
  • Uncle Ikhwan - girl
  • Uncle Faiz - boy
  • Nek Umi - boy
  • Nek Sue - boy
  • Nek Che Sue - girl
  • Nek Chik - boy
  • Nek Che Ngah - girl
  • Pak Long Din - boy
  • Pak Ngah Min - girl
  • Mak Lang Dad - boy
  • Mak Njang Anis - girl
  • Auntie Yong - girl
  • Auntie Ayu - girl
  • Auntie Norul - girl
  • My boss (the Dean) - girl
Luckily we only have two genders for the baby. So, you guys, your chance to have a right answer is 50%. I will let you all know the answer once I knew it! So, we'll see who is hitting the nails on its heads, soon!

Thomas and Friends

Do you know what my favorite tv program for now? It is Thomas and Friends! It is scheduled on air every morning at 8 am on Astro Ceria and the second story will be aired next 15 minutes. I am very sure that I like this tv program since the first day I’m having you in my little belly. I dare go for work late just not to miss watching the show.

The show is already translated into Bahasa Melayu to fit Malaysian kids. I simply can’t believe how Astro Ceria can find the Malay voice definite similar with the Brit voice. They must do hundreds of auditions to find the most suited voice for Thomas and Friends show. I bet that!

Hey, baby! And you know what? I can even sing the Thomas and Friends theme song! That is my favorite theme song for now. I taught Bapak the song and he can sing the first and second line quite well. And here goes the song. Hope you will like it, honey! (Err, I think it is you who force me to watch the show! Kan, kan, kan?!!)

They're two they're four they're six they're eight
Shunting trucks and hauling freight
Red and green and brown and blue
They're the really useful crew

All with different roles to play
Round Tidmouth Sheds or far away
Down the hills and round the bends
Thomas and his friends

Thomas he's the cheeky one
James is vain but lots of fun
Percy pulls the mail on time
Gordon thunders down the line
Emily really knows her stuff
Henry toots and huffs and puffs
Edward wants to help and share
Toby, well let's say, he's square

They're two they're four they're six they're eight
Shunting trucks and hauling freight
Red and green and brown and blue
They're the really useful crew

All with different roles to play
Round Tidmouths Sheds or far away
Down the hills and round the bends
Thomas and his friends

Bicornuate Uterus or Uterine Fibroid...or Normal Uterus?

We had our first check-up on February 5th, 2008 at Hospital Tengku Ampuan Afzan Kuantan. Dr. A, a young specialist at the Gynecology Department checked my belly for the first time. I felt like I was in Samarinda slot, where a mother being scanned and Bapak waited patiently beside me and Dr. A.

She put some jelly on my belly and began the scanning. It took her 5 minutes to check through my womb. She didn’t give her best look when she was scanning my womb. I thought she was going to say, “Look, there’s your baby! Congratulations for your first baby!”, instead she was saying the horrible line, “I think there is an unusual growth in your uterus. It seems like a bicornuate uterus. Umm, but it is too early to diagnose it as a bicornuate uterus. It might be a fibroid. Well, we’ll see in another one month.” And she stopped there, and I was like…what the heck is she talking about?

She kept telling Bapak about her diagnosis. They started talking aliens’ words, the Greek words. I was so angry + stressful + perplexed. This should be my very moment. So I asked Dr. A “Dr, can you explain to me in the lingo that I understand?”. And she started explain it to me more in hands free sketches rather than words (well, that describes a specialist, okay).

“Bicornuate uterus is an abnormality in the uterus. The uterus is separated into two and sometimes it seems like a heart shape. Meaning that, your baby will not develop as much as she would since she’s only having a small space in your womb. So the precautions are whether you are going to have a premature baby or the worst case scenario would be a miscarriage. It isn’t your fault. It was happened since you are in your mother’s womb when your uterus wasn’t completely developed.” And she stopped there and started being female Da Vincci, sketching the heart shape uterus.

I was so perplexed at that time that I didn’t even dare to look at the sketches. Bapak looked even sadder than me. But Dr. A told I not to worry and have a usual check-up. We thanked her and went out from the room with no emotions and no words. Bapak hold my hands even tighter than usual. This very moment really seemed like Samarinda slot.

I immediately called your grandmother telling her about the not-so-good news. I cried + talked + sobbed + drove a car at the same time. Well, you should know that you are going to have a lovely multi-tasking mother. Your grandmother consoled me and she asked me to pray a lot. I wish Allah would help me get through this.

I went back home and the next morning I googled through bicornuate uterus. The results showed that there are 48, 300 web pages for bicornuate uterus, but I found this website is the best, My family and friends please do not hesitate to browse the website.

But the story of bicornuate uterus isn’t stop there. And here goes the story.

My second check-up was on March 4th, 2008 with Dr. M, a senior Medical Officer at Gynecology Department. I was so worried to hear the stuff she was going to tell me. Fortunately, she was telling me that I am just having a fibroid which is better than a bicornuate uterus because the fibroid can be removed out, but not bicornuate uterus. I was smiling from ear to ear. I thanked her and Bapak and me walking hands to hands and held them even tighter than the first check-up.

My third check-up gave me sad news again while I was checked-up by Dr. N, a very young Medical Officer which is the type of doctors I don’t really adore. She told me that I am having a bicornuate uterus. She wasn’t so sure with the diagnosis and she called up her senior specialist, Mr. S. Mr. S scanned my belly and he can’t give his final words since he can’t say it is definitely a bicornuate uterus. If I really want to ensure it, I have to undergo an operation which is not required while being pregnant. So there we went again, out from the room with no emotions and no words.

My fourth check-up gave me better news than before. I was checked-up by Dr. F. She scanned my belly and she said she can’t see any unusual form in my uterus. She can’t even see a heart shape or a fibroid. All she saw was you! I can see your heart beat and she said you have a very beautiful spinal cord! I was so happy and Bapak too!

My fifth and sixth check-ups went on with more good news. The doctors can’t see any bizarre things in my belly anymore. I thank Allah so much for giving you the best space for you to stay. Now, all I have to do is hold Bapak’s hand tighter, tighter and tighter!!! And you just have to stay healthy okay my honey bunny!

The Red Book

Bapak talked a lot about the red book. He mentioned about your early report would be recorded in the red book. Your grandmother also told me about the red book. My friends also talked about the red book. Everybody talked about the red book. It’s all about the red book or they addressed it as Buku Merah.

I was very impatient to get my first red book. But Bapak told me that I’m going to get my own red book once I did my first check-up. So I have to wait for another 2 weeks to get the red book since Bapak told me the doctors would not give a check for the very early pregnancy. So I have to be really patient and play with my brain how does the red book looks like. Is it so red that I can’t bear with the color?

Finally, on February 5th, 2008, yee haa, I got my own first red book!! Bapak accompanied me to get it at Hospital Tengku Ampuan Afzan. And you know what dear baby? The red book isn’t so red just like what everyone told me. It is pink in color!

I have to write down all my details on the red book (well, it was more pinkish to me now). There are many medical terms that I don’t really understand. Oh, what a poor education I have! Luckily I have my own House to translate in the language that I understood. Primid, Tetanus Toxoid, Vena Varikos, Tinggi Fundal Simpisis – well, to list some of the aliens words in the red book. Whatever it is today is the very special day since I’m having a book that will record everything about you, dear! Yes, this is your storybook! It is all about you, you, you! Yes, you!!!

Yay!!! I’m having my very first red book!

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Best Wishes

The next morning on January 18th, 2008 once I knew the happiest news on earth about you, I texted almost everybody in my phone call list. And I quoted my own sms:

“Dear all, I am expecting a baby in 9 months times. Please be ready for the baby’s gift. Thank you”.

And here are the replies from the well-wishers.

‘Gumbiranya nenek Paka.’ – from Umi received on 11:28:24.

‘Cngrtltion! Aduh, gumbiranye..Skali bace msj tu, x caye lg sb tau lh kan, u ni l0ya buruk sikit.’ – from Sue received on 10:24:02.

‘Congrt kakak!!Monim2.!Waa..Sy lg gumbira..Ade ank sdare la pahni..! Yihaa.’ – from Dek Wan received on 10:27:02.

‘Alhamdulillah, tahniah jaga diri n kandungan baik2, moga c hat sjahtera.’ – from Aunty Saodah received on 09:46:37.

‘Is that true?? Congretulation.. We all x sbr ni.. Smoga kndungn kakak akn sntiasda d’lindungi nak blik?’ – from Che Sue received on 09:55:23.


‘Congrats! Share tips! So happy for u n fir!!!’ – from Inul received on 09:42:31.

There are lots more of the best wishes for you my little baby. Everybody wishes you the best. And Mummy too!

Positively Blessed

It’s January 18th, 2008. Right now I am feeling so many things. The reason for so many emotions is just because I took a pregnancy test and guess what it told me? It told me that in just a short time you would be coming into our lives and I would become a Mummy! Your Bapak already broke the news to me last night since I gave him my urine to have a pregnancy test. And I already knew it showed a positive result. But as a mother, I should have my very own pregnancy test. I asked Bapak to buy me a pregnancy test kit.

I am feeling so many things all at once. I am nervous about what this pregnancy has in store for me and how my body will change. Most importantly though I am excited because I am going to be bringing this little person into the world and I know that my parents is going to be very excited since you are their first grandchildren. I am overjoyed too because I am ready to be a Mummy and I have so much love to give to you.

I can’t wait until you are here and you can see how much love there is for you and what a great family you’ll have. I am anxious + happy + I feel so blessed that God has given us this beautiful and precious gift. I can’t wait to meet you my little one. Thanks Allah for such a beautiful gift. I am so positively blessed.

Anxiously Waiting

We have been waiting anxiously for you for almost a year and a half. I have been married to your Bapak on June 2nd, 2006. Since that day, we have keep on waiting for you each and every day. But honestly I don’t expect you to come to my belly so soon that I can’t spend the precious hours with Bapak. But my baby darling, you come to our lives just as nice as it is. It was an unexpected event, but it is definitely not an accidental pregnancy.

It happened on the night of January 18th, 2008 when I was all alone in our rented house at Taman Gudang Rasau. Your Bapak was scheduled on-call that day. So as always, I went to bed quite early since there was nothing I can do without Bapak. He is my day and night. He would be yours too, soon. But before he went to the hospital that night, he took my urine to have a pregnancy test since my regular menstrual wasn’t really regular that week. But I don’t expect anything since I always late for my menstrual.

It was 1 am in the morning. I was already having my pre-sleep when Bapak called me. He sounded happier than his usual ‘on-calls’ nights. “Obom, Obom pregnant!” he shouted as if I am deaf. “Huh? Jangan tipu She”, that was my response. “Iye, betul. Esok Abang bawak balik report urine test Obom”. And I was like…speechless. I was so excited that night that I made a late night call to your grandparents at Kok Lanas. Your grandparents were so exhilarated just like me! I just want to shout to the whole world that I am going to have a little innie inside of me! What a wonderful surprise!!! I thank to God and I performed Sujud Syukur.

And Bapak made another surprise when he came home at 6 am in the morning just to give me a wonderful hug I ever had. We were so excited that we can’t sleep anymore. We were hugging each other and Bapak started talking to you even though I know you are so small that even your ears still did not develop. Welcome to the womb world, baby! Err, how does it feel being inside of me?

My darling little innie, we just know that you will come to our lives just at the very perfect time! It is worth waiting. Now, we are busy preparing for our first baby arrival!