We had our first check-up on February 5th, 2008 at Hospital Tengku Ampuan Afzan Kuantan. Dr. A, a young specialist at the Gynecology Department checked my belly for the first time. I felt like I was in Samarinda slot, where a mother being scanned and Bapak waited patiently beside me and Dr. A.
She put some jelly on my belly and began the scanning. It took her 5 minutes to check through my womb. She didn’t give her best look when she was scanning my womb. I thought she was going to say, “Look, there’s your baby! Congratulations for your first baby!”, instead she was saying the horrible line, “I think there is an unusual growth in your uterus. It seems like a bicornuate uterus. Umm, but it is too early to diagnose it as a bicornuate uterus. It might be a fibroid. Well, we’ll see in another one month.” And she stopped there, and I was like…what the heck is she talking about?
She kept telling Bapak about her diagnosis. They started talking aliens’ words, the Greek words. I was so angry + stressful + perplexed. This should be my very moment. So I asked Dr. A “Dr, can you explain to me in the lingo that I understand?”. And she started explain it to me more in hands free sketches rather than words (well, that describes a specialist, okay).
“Bicornuate uterus is an abnormality in the uterus. The uterus is separated into two and sometimes it seems like a heart shape. Meaning that, your baby will not develop as much as she would since she’s only having a small space in your womb. So the precautions are whether you are going to have a premature baby or the worst case scenario would be a miscarriage. It isn’t your fault. It was happened since you are in your mother’s womb when your uterus wasn’t completely developed.” And she stopped there and started being female Da Vincci, sketching the heart shape uterus.
I was so perplexed at that time that I didn’t even dare to look at the sketches. Bapak looked even sadder than me. But Dr. A told I not to worry and have a usual check-up. We thanked her and went out from the room with no emotions and no words. Bapak hold my hands even tighter than usual. This very moment really seemed like Samarinda slot.
I immediately called your grandmother telling her about the not-so-good news. I cried + talked + sobbed + drove a car at the same time. Well, you should know that you are going to have a lovely multi-tasking mother. Your grandmother consoled me and she asked me to pray a lot. I wish Allah would help me get through this.
I went back home and the next morning I googled through bicornuate uterus. The results showed that there are 48, 300 web pages for bicornuate uterus, but I found this website is the best, http://pregnancy.families.com/blog/lets-talk-about-having-a-bicornuate-uterus. My family and friends please do not hesitate to browse the website.
But the story of bicornuate uterus isn’t stop there. And here goes the story.
My second check-up was on March 4th, 2008 with Dr. M, a senior Medical Officer at Gynecology Department. I was so worried to hear the stuff she was going to tell me. Fortunately, she was telling me that I am just having a fibroid which is better than a bicornuate uterus because the fibroid can be removed out, but not bicornuate uterus. I was smiling from ear to ear. I thanked her and Bapak and me walking hands to hands and held them even tighter than the first check-up.
My third check-up gave me sad news again while I was checked-up by Dr. N, a very young Medical Officer which is the type of doctors I don’t really adore. She told me that I am having a bicornuate uterus. She wasn’t so sure with the diagnosis and she called up her senior specialist, Mr. S. Mr. S scanned my belly and he can’t give his final words since he can’t say it is definitely a bicornuate uterus. If I really want to ensure it, I have to undergo an operation which is not required while being pregnant. So there we went again, out from the room with no emotions and no words.
My fourth check-up gave me better news than before. I was checked-up by Dr. F. She scanned my belly and she said she can’t see any unusual form in my uterus. She can’t even see a heart shape or a fibroid. All she saw was you! I can see your heart beat and she said you have a very beautiful spinal cord! I was so happy and Bapak too!
My fifth and sixth check-ups went on with more good news. The doctors can’t see any bizarre things in my belly anymore. I thank Allah so much for giving you the best space for you to stay. Now, all I have to do is hold Bapak’s hand tighter, tighter and tighter!!! And you just have to stay healthy okay my honey bunny!
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