Wonderful Weekend Part 3

Yay, we managed to have a blast out at Gambang Waterpark last weekend! I bought you your first swimming suit and it is fuschia! Everyone went bananas, but I can't enjoy so many rides due to the bun in the oven. You love the water so much Iris. You tried everything, you did not afraid of the waves, so Bapak had to buy you the Ben 10 buoy. Guess nothing left to say, so enjoy the photos!

Ready to go!

Mummy, where's my oversized glasses?

Yayaya!

Well-planned school holiday. (Er, really?)

Iris said "Wow! once she saw this play area.

Nek Ma covered my big belly.

Auw, ruffles!

Yaya, Kakak Farhah, Iris & Anya

Auw, kaki, putihnya!

River cruise

Bapak, next plan?

Staring at the wall - Part 1

I think I married to the right person with wrong profession.

It is so wrong!

Iris is a light sleeper. I guess the last thing she would love to do is sleep. It is quite hard for me since I need a good night sleep. I browsed through several websites on baby sleep patterns. And what shocked me the most is the way to make my Iris sleep better and longer at night. She is still breastfeeding, but my milk is not enough to make her full. Instead, I give her a bottle of milk whenever she wakes up in the middle of the night, with a little prayer that she might sleep until morning.

Guess what? It is so wrong to do that!!

Read the tip from http://www.slumbersounds.com: Tip: A bottle at night is a bad habit. It's bad for your toddler's teeth and her ears, and if it becomes part of her routine, she'll always need it to fall asleep, even when she wakes up in the middle of the night. Get rid of it now if you haven't done so already.

Oh my God! I must get rid of it now!

My, what I need the most is a husband!

Admission Part 2

I was admitted to HUSM. A series of admissions. Hate, hate.

For four days. Four not-so-miserable days. I had Iris taken care by my parents; and Firdausku Sorang to take care of me. That was more than enough.

I still bleed the blood clot the size of my palm. It was scary the time the clot tried to get out from my body, fret it would be my baby's little legs. Even peeing wasn't a simple act anymore.

This time, they knew the cause.

They explained. It IS cervical erosion. I heard they talked to each other "See, very bad erosion". As if I don't know what bad means.

They explained. It is cervical erosion and the causes are obvious: pregnancy hormonal change; trauma which I understood as seks ganas; and cervical cancer. I hope it was prior to the first cause, since it was way too far from the second cause, and I pray that it wasn't due to the third cause. But still they have to rule out everything and the Pap Smear should be done.

The Pap Smear. The word. Fear.

"All great people diagnosed with cancer"-me. But I'm not great.

I'll get the result in two months' times. For they don't want me to worry over it.

Who said I'm not worried? I cried and started to have bad thoughts. Firdausku Sorang married to another thing and that thing would hug and kiss Iris and her brother. Stupid.

For this time, I didn't lie.

I feared the risks.

I love that doctor. I will always do.

I didn't sign any from. Got into the car, and went home.

With no blood clot.

But with that crucial result of that fear word.

I'm waiting, docs.

Admission Part 1

I was admitted to HTAA.

For four days. Four miserable days.

I bled and they called it AHP. For I don't know what AHP is, the only thing I knew I was bled the blood clot the size of my palm.

They did the best but all they can say was "Undetermined Cause".

Best of all, they said I have an active baby. I saw him smiling and say "Help me Mummy. I want to stay longer in your womb. It is my 25 weeks and 5 days and I still want to grow in your warmth womb". Seriously I saw him smiling. So they gave me Dexa, a true pain in the ass. Dexa, the steroid to strengthen his lungs. Just like his elder sister, Kak Iris, she too was given the steroid. 'Both of you have tried the steroid; please stay away from it once you grow up'.

It was hell on the third day.

I missed Iris the most.

I annoyed loved ones.

I cheated the doctors. I showed them clean pad. I got caught.

I can't lie anymore. So I told them I want AOR; discharge At Own Risk.

They explained the risks. They really are professionals. I love doctors. I married one.

I signed the form. Got into the car, and went home.

With blood clot.

Stop worrying

...and start living!

Bunyi bird macamana?

I Miss Her

Monologue: Gorjeous nya aku dulu. Sampai sanggup snap gambar sendiri, sampai tak crop tapak tangan tu. Oh rindu betul pada perempuan cantik ini. Sekarang? Benda yang paling dibenci-kamera.

P/S: Yes, I talked to myself in Bahasa Melayu. Precisely in Bahasa Kelantan.

Wonderful Weekend Part Two

What are the best things for a grandchild? Yes, the grandparents! So last week, Nek Ma and Tok Ba paid you a visit plus a bonus person, your number one fan: Bapak! Nek Ma and Tok Ba haven’t met you for almost a month! Sure they were extremely missing you. Yes, they were! They reached Kuantan at 2 o’clock in the morning on Friday night and Nek Ma went straight to our room and kissed you once she saw you and that made the ghost she brought along the way from Kelantan (I guess it was Jerangau’s super ghost) to say hello to you and that made you cried all night long and left me unwise the next morning. Lucky you have divine grandparents so that they played with you all night long, but still you want me to be with you as well. I overheard Nek Ma said to Tok Ba *“Sie jugok ko Kakak kalu male-male Iris asyik dok nangis lagu ni”, without knowing that they were to be blamed, that they brought the ghost to your world.

So the morning came and I went to the office as usual and leaving you with your fans. After stucked in the office for about four hours, I went straight home and started gossiped with Nek Ma. Oh, please, tiada benda untuk digosip, semuanya cerita murahan. We spent our night with more beneficial activity-the crafting hour! I never thought Nek Ma has the same interest with me. She was the one who suggested to sell the crafted cards. Ha-ha! Anyone interested?

LoTsALOveSTM

These are all Nek Ma's ideas!

What was on Saturday? We went out on Saturday. We ate out and did what we are best at: window shopping. So, here are the photos. Enjoice!

Family kuat makan

Family control makan

Siakap Nyonya Style

Friends, friends, where are you?

With Anya

With Tok Ba

Anya and the fat woman

With Anya and Nek Ma

"Mummy, please buy me this white organza. I want to make sexy dress"

*"Kasihan juga kat Kakak kalau malam-malam Iris asyik menangis macam ni."

Little YB

Our little YB