5+5=10

A simple Maths, but a complicated decision to make.

It was 3rd May 2010 when I had my first appointment at HUSM Kubang Kerian after several at Kuantan. I was referred for footling breech. I went there with my father since Firdausku Sorang had his first paper of his very first examination.

Here is the conversation between me and the doctor that I will not forget.

Doc: Baby ni footling breech ni, kena Caeser ni. So I letak you in list this Thursday for Caeser.

And I was like “What? This Thursday?”

Me: Dah tak boleh pusing ke doktor? Buat ECV dulu tak boleh? Khamis ni?

Doc: Normally kalau footling breech memang kena Caeser, tapi if you insist, boleh refer specialist.

Me: Kalau boleh refer, refer la doktor. Saya kalau boleh nak normal delivery.

Doc: Okay, apa-apa pun you datang Thursday and we’ll see what we can do for you.

We’ll see.

It was Thursday, 5th May 2010. I had my second appointment. I went there with Firdausku Sorang because he had no paper that day. Unfortunately we missed the morning round so I have to wait for evening round. I was admitted to 2 Akik’s ward and I was scheduled for Caesarian delivery on the next day, 6th of May. So there I was, lying on the bed hoping that the miracle would happen and my baby would turn so that I will have normal delivery. I thought of Iris as well, I left her with a kiss on a cheek while she was still sleeping.

Then the nurse came and did the normal procedure after admitting to the ward. They checked the baby’s movement and to my surprise there was 2:10 contraction. An hour later the doctor came to me and she said I’ll be having Caesarian in two hours time-Emergency Caesarian. Yes, an emergency. Still I hoped for my little baby to turn the head down. I had a very long discussion with the doctor before signing the consent. She said I can have normal delivery but I have to face some risks. She herself is a breech baby, but her mother delivered her normally. Thus, it encouraged me to deliver in natural way. I asked for second opinion.

Me: Abang, macamana ni? Doktor cakap She kena Caeser tengahari nanti. Memang She tak boleh deliver normal la ni?

Abang: Abang rasa better Caeser-lah She. Benefit is more than risk, She.

Benefit is more than risk. And that what made me sign the consent.

I called and texted ones who close to me, telling that I will have C-sec in two hours time.
In the blink of an eye, I was on the bed outside the OT room. The nurse asked whether I have my husband waiting for me outside, I said he was around so the nurse called him and he was in the library studying for the next day’s examination.

For the second blink of an eye, there he was my personal midwife, wearing the surgeon’s gown I want to make love in that, accompanied me into the OT room. And there I was battling with the procedure, it was painless but still I was scared of my footling breech baby. Firdausku Sorang was battling with the situation as well; he kept telling me ‘Semuanya okay, sikit je lagi’ for like hundred times. Twenty minutes after that I saw the doctor pulled my baby’s feet and I saw them blue, I was scared to death something bad happened to my newborn. And later I heard my baby’s cry, and like my first daughter's arrival, I was crying of joy. One of the nurses told me “Oh, oghe kito”, I didn’t get it at first then I realized I have another baby girl, call me Kimora Lee Simon by now. Yay! Girl power!

The team did a good work; a thank you note is not enough. Then everybody did a normal routine; the doctors did another surgery, a father-cum-student went to a library, and we discovered each other in a most pleasant way-breastfeeding he he (macam pantun pulak).

Welcome to a new world little baby with big loves from all of us! Yay, famili kita dah ada empat orang!