Of too many things. Never crossed my mind I’d block my blog. But something bugs me. Guess too many details I’ve been putting in my blog, details about my girls, now I become paranoid. The world is not a safe place; I’d rather keep all the stories of my motherhood and the girls all to myself. What if someone crazy out there who reads my blog regularly and plan abduction? Not a typical crazy, but with a capital C; and that fool will ask RM1 million for ransom, which obviously not in a million years I’ve had that amount in my bank. Perhaps I can give the fool my books which I love so much right after my parents.
Or is it a mid-life crisis? How on earth you know you have another 30 years to live? I don’t know what the hell is happening inside of me. I told Anya I want to be invisible; only visible to her and Iris and Iesha. This is what I told her.
Me: Ney, aku raso aku nak jadi invisible-lah. I’m sick of being manusia kelas pertengahan. Ney, why suddenly aku lost interest in fashion, in making friends, beli beg and baju comey-comey? Why Ney why?
Anya: Mu nak jadi invisible Kakak?
Me: Ho.
Anya: Aku raso bagus jugok mu jadi invisible, sebab aku tengok mu supo mokcik doh loni. Buruk.
Me: Thanks Ney. Aku suko komen mu.
Perhaps it is motherhood itself. Sometimes I feel it is a very lonely journey. So I guess I have nothing to say in my blog. Most of the times I have lot to say, but I have so few minutes to write; and that’s that, I kept struggling with the time lately. To Iris and Iesha, forgive me; I love you both every day, and every other day.
But a thought had changed my mind today. Yes, a thought. A positive thought. So here I am again, unblocking my blog.
So people, hi! How’s your day? How’s your blog?
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